on a struggle
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Hai.School sucks.Life sucks.I'm struggling mentally and emotionally.I've to make prolly the hardest decision in my life.Either way its heart-wrenching.Why cant people forget. n not to think of it,when something is bad enough n worst will soon to come.Just erase it off the memory after the bad news.Or why cant feelings just go numb for a while.It might be alot easier to cope.If only we can choose,I might choose it this way.But the world isnt meant to be like that.Feelings and memories filled this world we are living on,be it good or bad.It will still harm us in another way or so.We are living in this world,for,we n we must suffer here.Life is unfair.But thats Life.Who can change it? Get rid of all sufferings.And its like impossible.No matter how happy you are,it will still attack you somehow in someway.We must and no other other way out to face it regardless of what shit is happening.I choose not to think of the decision i have to make.Try to keep myself busy and have no time for that.I'm blardy busy.


Can you all believe this is in SP? Just found out today.So cool.Like resort.
// CheR-` //